Also, a large part of me is sorry that I ever posted on this, but then... no one was saying anything.
Re: adopting American culture as problematic. I guess my POV on that is that maybe I wasn't outright discriminated against because I am Asian, but there were many, many times in which I felt like the token Asian among my (white) friends. I keep saying this, but it's because it had a big impact on me... there were always many comments about the Asian table and the Asian gang, and I always felt that they looked at me approvingly, like, "Oh, you're not one of those Asians that hangs out with other Asians."
Again, I wanted to say that I am not saying that my experience is yours, because... uh, I am not you ;). But I guess I wanted to say something like, yes, I do think racism is alive, albeit disguised, and as such, I think it's difficult to stay out of the argument if you are an Entity of Pigment because sometimes, people will take silence for assent.
Crud. Now I sound like I'm accusing you of not speaking up, which really is not what I meant, because I really, really, really wanted to say that I respect your uneasiness and your experience and what you feel, and that this is a difficult topic and not easy to post on.
*sigh*
I'm really sorry if this doesn't make sense and if it is offensive.
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Also, a large part of me is sorry that I ever posted on this, but then... no one was saying anything.
Re: adopting American culture as problematic. I guess my POV on that is that maybe I wasn't outright discriminated against because I am Asian, but there were many, many times in which I felt like the token Asian among my (white) friends. I keep saying this, but it's because it had a big impact on me... there were always many comments about the Asian table and the Asian gang, and I always felt that they looked at me approvingly, like, "Oh, you're not one of those Asians that hangs out with other Asians."
Again, I wanted to say that I am not saying that my experience is yours, because... uh, I am not you ;). But I guess I wanted to say something like, yes, I do think racism is alive, albeit disguised, and as such, I think it's difficult to stay out of the argument if you are an Entity of Pigment because sometimes, people will take silence for assent.
Crud. Now I sound like I'm accusing you of not speaking up, which really is not what I meant, because I really, really, really wanted to say that I respect your uneasiness and your experience and what you feel, and that this is a difficult topic and not easy to post on.
*sigh*
I'm really sorry if this doesn't make sense and if it is offensive.